Battles

     This week at work a classroom teacher said something profound that I had never heard before. What he said was along the lines of "when we choose to pick battles, we need to pick battles that we will win." Many people who are parents, work in education, or work with children use the phrase "picking your battles" to indicate what is worth addressing with students and what is not, but this line was different. He was going a step further to say that when we address a concern with a student, we need to make sure that we will win the discussion by making sure that the feedback is received well, students comprehend the information, and that steps will be taken to work towards a positive change.

     While this is great advice for working with kids, it really hit me in regards to my battle with Ed. I have chosen to fight Ed. I have recognized a problem that needs addressed. I understand the steps needed to make change happen. I try to actively work on my relationship with food and to continually get better. I try to make recovery a priority in my life.

I am choosing a battle.

But more importantly, I am choosing a battle that I know I can win.

     Now I know for absolute certain that there is no way that I can beat Ed in these multiple, daily battles by myself. I definitely need the support of a team and I can not do anything or make much progress without the help of my God. In fact, without God, I don't know that I would still be fighting Ed. I may have given up my will to fight by now. With Jesus giving me directions and instructions day by day, moment by moment, I have been able to grow slightly in regards to my Ed relationship. 

     Early this morning, I quietly heard God telling me to walk along this path with Him right now as I journey and navigate through Ed, as opposed to trying to sprint uphill as I have been. The steep slope that I have been attempting sounds tiring in itself, and even more so as someone who does not enjoy hiking. ;) But truly, God is inviting me to take a stroll through a green pasture instead of trying to fight more than I need to. The uphill run is me being busy, not taking care of myself, and not having a support team. God is telling me to rest, be quiet, to be still, to take things slower. Yet, I also heard Him saying that the uphill climb should be avoided not because my body could not handle it, but because His way is easier. As a friend and mentor said, "how sweet that He would provide an easier option. It's not always the case that His paths are easier."

     Taking the time to listen to God is one thing, now I need to put it into practice. As I walk along this path with Him, my prayers are that He would guide. He is always faithful to do so. Thank God that He is providing an easier way. I hope that I take advantage of it, and that you do to.

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I started this blog as a memoir to share some of my life stories with you. My goal is that these encourage and educate you on how to live a more joyful, healthier, full life; one of hope.

I write about my fascination with whole foods, my love of Jesus, my struggles, my childhood stories, my passion for education, and my devotion to creating a healthy life (body, mind, and spirit) for every person in the world.