Separating From Ed

        I absolutely can not fight Ed on my own and win. It would be foolish to think that I could, when in reality, I would fall flat on my face and honestly, I may not be here. I have come to realize that if I examine and reframe my/Ed's thoughts to be ones of how I would treat someone else or how Jesus would treat me, I have a more gentle approach towards myself.      I am also trying to reframe my ideas around specific food items. As someone who LOVES to give advice when it is warranted and requested, I have begun to try to reframe my thoughts and ideas about food. I have started to ask myself if the lies that Ed tells me about a certain food (______ will make you _____, ________ is a treat and you don't ______ it, or the like) are the truth and if I would in good conscience share that advice with someone else. As someone who cares (maybe too much) about people in general and as a Christian with a strong moral compass, I would never intentional...

     Back in August I made a post titled " What Not to Say to Someone with an Eating Disorder ." After thinking about it and wanting to write this post for a while, I am sharing now what I DO want to hear, and sometimes need to hear while fighting my eating disorder.      Sometimes I may know things in my head, but not truly believe them or give myself permission to do them unless someone else says it to me. From a logical, non-ED viewpoint, this seems silly. I should believe myself, but often, I don't. I struggle with what is true and not true, with what is right or wrong, what I should do or shouldn't do. While the list of things that I don't want to hear seems fairly large (and could probably be infinite), the list of things that I do want to hear feels relatively short. You are doing what is right Is this what you need to be well/healthy? How can I support you? I want to help. How can I? Hang in there Do what you need to be well I always wan...