A Letter to Jesus

Dear Jesus,

     You, Lord, are beautiful. You know when I sit and when I rise. You perceive my thoughts from afar. Before a word is on my tongue, You know it completely, O, Lord. Your ways are always good and always higher than mine. Your plans are far beyond anything that I could ever do for myself. You hem me in behind and before. You created me in my mother's womb and wove me together in the depths of the earth.

     Lord, despite knowing all about me, You still choose to love me. You are miraculous. What other god would love unconditionally? All of my faults and mistakes are obliterated in Your presence because of Your blood. Your blood is life. When it left Your body, it made me new, whole, and clean. Lord, my God, I can't thank You enough.

     You are powerful and mighty, Lord. You are good. You are strong, holy, and worthy to be praised. Nothing I could ever do or not do makes You love me any more or any less. You love me as I am and You love me as if I were the only person You created. You wholly love me. You love me so much that if I were the only sinner to ever walk the face of the earth, You will still die for me. That amazes me, Lord God.

     Lord, I thank You that You know what is best for me. I thank You that You continue to help heal me and make me more like You. I thank You that You have a beautiful and wonderful plan laid out for my life that is to bring You glory and to advance Your Kingdom. God, You are powerful.

     Lord, I thank You that You direct my steps, You know all of my ways. God, You know more about me than I know about myself. I can't thank You enough, Lord God, that You are not a God far off, but that You are close by and are willing and able to answer me and my questions. God, when I doubt, You remind me of Your past faithfulness and how You are worthy to be trusted. I can count on Your word. It is true, holy, righteous, and good because You are all of those things and Your words are from You. You are beautiful, Lord.

     Jesus, I thank You, that as I transition in these seasons, that I can rest assured that You will always keep me safe, that You will guide my every move, and that You will use me to make You know. I thank You that even though I do not know what the future holds or what is next, that I know that You will always be with me. I thank You for the peace that surpasses all understanding that You have given me, God. I can not comprehend it. Your ways are too wonderful for me and too lofty for me to attain.

     God, as I pursue new adventures, continue to learn to trust my body and mind, yet still have slip ups, feel down or upset, have a low attitude, and when I mess up, I ask that You continue to remind me of all that I am in You. Without You, I am nothing, Lord, but with You, I have every reason to be grateful. You have given me so much. Thank you, Lord. It is hard truth and ridiculous grace that You chose to love me. You are God in the highs and the lows. In my eating disorder, in recovery, in college, growing up, in marriage, in relationships, in working, in playing, in sleeping. You are still Lord in the depression, the anxiety, the diagnosis, the hard conversations. You are God over my life, death, when I do right and when I do wrong. You are the Lord over my applications, my conversations, my hurt, pain, trust, laughs, humor, truth, writing, speaking, and uncertainties. You are a good God. I can hope in You because You are good.

     You give me what I need daily. Thank You. As I look into going back to school to pursue additional degrees, I ask that You give me the wisdom, knowledge, confidence, and abilities that I need to do well at every aspect. God, the hope is to do Your will and help others. I know that if I do what You have commanded, that You will not let me be put to shame, but rather, You will rejoice in my obedience and bless me. You will provide for my every need, give me hope to keep going, and give me reasons to believe You. Lord, You alone are good. You have the ability to help me continue school, get accepted into various programs and colleges, to do well at the material, to make a difference in others lives, to display You and Your love, to graduate, to get a meaningful job if that is Your will, and to be the best wife, worker, and mother that I can be. Nothing is possible without You and everything is possible with You. You make me able and I thank You for my abilities in You. You want me to be the best that I can be, but You don't just leave me there, You help me get there, encouraging me along the way. God, You are beautiful. If it is Your will for me to combine the career fields that You told me about years ago, help me to trust and believe You that it WILL happen. Help me to overcome my unbelief and Lord, if it is Your will to have me work in a treatment center, help me to trust in You to get me there and be with me every step of the way.

     Thank You for Your love, Lord Jesus.

     Your daughter,
Al

I started this blog as a memoir to share some of my life stories with you. My goal is that these encourage and educate you on how to live a more joyful, healthier, full life; one of hope.

I write about my fascination with whole foods, my love of Jesus, my struggles, my childhood stories, my passion for education, and my devotion to creating a healthy life (body, mind, and spirit) for every person in the world.

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